Somebody called me mean the other day. Now i am the first person to admit i have lots of shortcomings, i can be impulsive, i don't look before i leap. i procrastinate. I avoid confrontations. i am not the most organized pup in the litter BUT i would never deliberately hurt another person. There have been times when i have stayed in situations and/or relationships that were hurtful for me because i haven't wanted to hurt someone. So to be called mean; that really bothered me. But today in church i began to think that there have been some situations that haven't worked out the way i'd hoped. Then i thought maybe i had a hand in these things not working out. Now what do i do to turn this around? As i sat in church i thought should i pray, read, eat, shop, discuss this with Felix? The other night i said to gianna, "i've been thinking, i haven't been a good mother." Gianna looked at me like i was crazy and then reassured me i was just fine. But at my lowest i dwell on my faults and the mistakes i've made. But i still don't think i'm a mean person. Life goes on....................